Fear of winning is something we don't hear too much about, but it's something chess and Zen have in common. There is, of course, no winning in Zen just as there is no losing. But there is a parallel in that we so often resist our True Nature. Indeed it is easier for some people to believe they are "bad" or fundamentally flawed than it is to believe they are Buddha. As a result of this resistance, we feel incomplete, lacking, perpetually hungry for meaning. We sedate ourselves with media, drugs, sex, exercise. It's as though we can't take too much Buddha Nature. Most of us like our Buddha Nature only in small doses. A shotglass of it every now and then. But the fact is, we're always edgeless. Always birthless & deathless even as we're born and die. In chess, we fear winning because we feel unworthy, or perhaps we don't want our opponent to dislike us or harbor a grudge. Important to see this when it arises or we can lose many matches needlessly. Please see it clearly enough and it will evaporate. See self-limiting views chaining us to "me" or "I" and they too evaporate.